Monday, January 28, 2008

...and if one door opens to another door closed...

In a wonderful way I find myself overwhelmed with the ideas in 340--so many thoughts coming in every direction and I want to be able to grasp them all at the same time. I read about Zeno's paradoxes (refer to First Fork's blog) and I laughed and said, "Yea, sure why not 'all is one.'" I like that because then all these thoughts are one.

I think with art, like with life, we have to find our own doors and windows in. I think they exist where we want to find them. In fact, they only exist at all if we want to find them. It is like they say--that art is truly a unique experience for each person. Maybe we will only experience any piece within our realm of possibility, in the ways that are possible for us. So then if I am the maker, I may try to provide windows, but you will only see into them if you are looking. If you open it up and come in, then it has become a door.

I like the idea of the piece of creation itself as the door or window--it is letting someone experience it as a way to see something, or a way to feel something, or a window/door in to the maker herself.

I found my own door into this song (I didn't write these words, but used them in my creation)...


This is also something that is not a new creation today, but I think when I wrote this poem I wanted someone to read it and find their own door in.

One Two Step


A wild Thursday night party,

she’s dancing, belting out the lyrics

to Ciara’s “One Two Step.”

Wearing her russet boots, the tall ones

that give her 5’2” a little dominance.

Sweaty bodies push up against her

in the teeny room, but the lights are off

and everyone’s been drinking

so no one seems to mind.

Some guy in his standard,

slightly flamboyant, fraternity boy

button down comes up behind her

putting his hands on her waist.

His bucking bronco dancing needs a harness

but she laughs it off.

Breathing Natty Light down her neck, creating

his own beat he pulls her closer, forcing

his right hand beneath her pale blue rhinestone belt.

Clutching at the inseam of her American Eagle jeans

as his right hand prowls her abdomen,

grabbing her breasts.

Suddenly he is not just some guy,

he is that one.

He is every man we will never trust.

She’s stumbling over the futon

and tearing out the front door

as his friends, in matching collared shirts,

shout taunts. The narrow path worn through

the trees on the side of the house

is melted snow, refrozen, uneven

and her 3” Steve Maddens trip her repetitively

as her fair blond curls beat the back of her neck.

Reaching the pavement she slows down,

staggering, she throws her head back

to the navy 1 a.m. sky, then reels

forward and catches her sobbing

in her freshly nail polished hands,

collapsing onto the stone base

of a bare church fountain.

Huddled against the freezing granite

she is fourteen again,

belt hanging,

ripped from it’s buckle.

2 comments:

Unknown said...

I loved the embedded poem, the specific details about the frat guy especially: "His bucking bronco dancing needs a harness," and the fact that he and all his frat brothers wear matching outfits and shout taunts. The hand that slips inside her American Eagle jeans while he "breathes Natty Light down her throat" is especially recognizable, but I love this moment: "And suddenly he is that guy." The reason we will never trust men... just a great turning point in the poem, that ends with such force on the frozen ground with a broken belt, six years before. Really well done.

forker girl said...

Indeed; I use a limited fork to configure doors and windows --anywhere.

Perhaps I harbor a desire, that perhaps I hope some of the doors and windows I configure as (parts of) framing systems, will overlap in some location for some period of time, other door and window systems

allow some momentary sharing, some brief coming together

--and then any/all of this is subject to reconfiguration

--that kaleidoscopic symmetry

--that infinitely(?) faceted structure that is an outcome of interest in/commitment to a whole

(that could be a hole in something).

This:
I like the idea of the piece of creation itself as the door or window--it is letting someone experience it as a way to see something, or a way to feel something, or a window/door in to the maker herself
is an idea worthy (as I frame it) of liking, so I'm glad that you like it.